Being who we are…

This world is a place where it seems a chosen few, an elite force, decide a lot of things; who is pretty or ugly, successful or a failure, popular or excluded, valuable or worthless.  It is frightening to be exposed to be your naked self in this world.
So to protect ourselves we put on masks.  A mask is something worn to conceal or disguise one’s real identity, personality or character. A mask can also be something that covers up our intentions or something we have done.  We put masks on to hide things about ourselves from others.
We hide silly things; we read romance novels, we paint our toenails blue, we sometimes have dessert for supper, we have not moved or dusted behind the dresser in years…
We hide hard or sad things; our marriage is falling apart, we do not have money to pay the rent, our child is on drugs, we are depressed…
We hide what embarrasses us; where we come from or what we have done in the past, Daddy was an alcoholic, have an addiction, have been arrested, we have doubts about our faith…
Our masks are in place because we are trying to be what we think others want or expect from us.  We want to be accepted and to belong.
We hide our thoughts and beliefs–things most important to who we are. We are afraid to defend our thoughts and beliefs because we do not want to be misunderstood or to be outside of what is currently popular in the culture of the times.
We hide our personalities in a box.  Sometimes a pretty box but more often in a plain brown box. We try to be like everyone else so we will fit in.
Instead of being someone of strong character, like actors we become a character playing someone else, an illusion. We weaken our character by following the crowd and trying to fit in.
I would like to say I never wear a mask.  But the truth is I often do and it is rarely, if ever, comfortable. There a few people with whom I am truly myself. And with all my faults and failings unmasked and right out there for them to see they love me–even like me.  They see me for who I am and they are encouraging and helping me  become who I am meant to be.  I am blessed.
My prayer is that we all will be brave and strong and stop hiding. That we come to know that who we are is more than just OK.  We have been created  for a purpose, to be who we are and where we are, by our loving Father and sovereign God.
Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking.  Instead, fix your attention on God.  You’ll be changed from the inside out.  Readily recognize what He wants from you, and quickly respond to it.  Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to it’s level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.
Romans 12:2 The Message Bible 
I wonder why I sometimes think the woman I really am is not good enough and I must hide her and be like everyone else?
I wonder what awesome things we would see and do if the masks came off and we just let God bring the best out of us.
Just wondering…
                                                                                                               

Waiting

Most of life seems to be spent waiting.

We wait at the post office, the bank, the grocery store.  We wait for an appointment with the doctor or dentist and wait for test results or to have a prescription filled.  We wait for the interview then we wait to hear the outcome.  We wait to be served or helped.  We wait for a phone call or an e-mail.  We wait for silly things and important things. We wait for people and things.  Waiting with excited anticipation or sad acceptance.

We are busy waiting.  Waiting always waiting for something or someone.

I am waiting now.  Waiting on the Lord.  Waiting for answers, direction, guidance and wisdom only He can give.
 
I am not good at waiting. Even waiting on the Lord I am sometimes impatient or angry or anxious or depressed while I wait.  Yet I am encouraged knowing that He has a  plan for me, a plan for my good not for harm, a plan for my future and a hope (Jeremiah 29:11).

But I want to make decisions now—I want action now!  I am tired of this waiting.  However, His time is perfect and when I pray the word I receive over and over is from Psalm 27:14–

Wait for the Lord; be strong and let your heart take courage; yes, wait for the Lord. 
  • To wait is to look for or to expect, be patient
  • To be strong is to be alert, to prevail, be steadfast
  • Take courage is to take hold, be sure, fortify, behave valiantly
Seems easy enough.  But can I be the person who is patient and alert behaving valiantly while I wait?
The real question here is—Do I believe the promise given in Jeremiah?  My heart says yes, yes, YES!  My head wants to argue and debate.  My whole heart is the Lord’s.  My head is still looking to the world for answers.

I wait for the Lord, my soul waits and in His word I put my hope. Ps130:5

Is it not amazing that we have a Creator that has included an instruction manual for our lives?  Do we read it and follow the instructions?  Or do we live our lives with little thought for it until something goes wrong?

Just wondering